Yes, I am still alive. I am good and healthy, also in a good state of mind and can write this entry.
To be honest I may not have been so "well" in the past, but at some point I found peace of mind.
Since I want so much out of life it's hard sometimes to be content enough just to kick back and ride along. But in these few months I've discovered that I need more time in my life to just think. Sure I can keep writing songs and dish out lyrics, but after a while it I felt I was just relying on an old formula instead of exploring.
After staying away from the circuit of gig after gig of performing and recording for more than a year, I feel I have a much better idea of what my music should be like.
The thought of starting from scratch is a bit scary since I've built upon a style that was based on what my band has been doing for the past 10 years or so. But I believe that if anyone is afraid to reinvent themselves or afraid to discover their true selves, anything they do is too artificial and superficial to really be inspiring.
Makes you think about what music or art is to people. If I pretend that music is a commodity like coffee, something we don't need but want, do we need to reinvent coffee every time we open a coffee shop? Or is delivering a country rock tune like it's been done for the last 30 years in the same formula, is exactly what is expected of us? I guess we need to decide ourselves.
I've changed a lot as a person over the past 2 years and believe that slowly there has been a change to the music I write as well.
Not out to reinvent what already works, but do want to recognize the fact that I wasn't happy with myself for a long time and struggled to figure out how to move forward and now I think I have started to figure it all out.
